a summer’s disregard
Things are looking up. My contract got extended at work (by a month…but hopefully this is a good sign), and I have been having so much fun lately!
This morning church was the size of a peanut. Including everyone there were maybe 10 people. It was weird. It’s a holiday weekend and there is a lot of transition going on. It is difficult and challenging and good all at the same time.
Last night went to an impromptu barbecue with some friends. It was small and delightful. I laughed and laughed because the MOST inappropriate topics of discussion kept popping up while we were eating. In between I was singing along with Michael Jackson. Someone passed me the grill grabber to use as a microphone. In the middle of the song I couldn’t help but say, “This microphone smells like meat.”
For some reason we laughed like that was the funniest thing we’d ever heard. It was fun.
After fireworks we all bussed over to a local place that was having a Michael Jackson dance party. I’m pretty self conscious so I do not typically dance, but c’mon, it was Michael Jackson, and so of course I had to bust out some giant sloppy white girl moves. I just can’t believe he died; I’ve been oddly taking it kind of hard…I suppose few people understand the way I feel about music, and the man was such an icon. I am sad about the big picture, but am taken aback when I reflect on what he brought to music, video, dance, culture. It’s fascinating what impact one person can potentially have on the whole world. Remarkable.
All in all, I can complain about the many things in my life I would hope to change (and I know there are plenty), but for the first season ever I feel like lately I have been just enjoying myself, I am being young, I am having so much fun. I never thought this is where I would be in my life at this age. Probably everyone who knows me knows that. But I will admit I am simultaneously glad for the delay in settling down that I am currently experiencing. I am enjoying life and now that school is over, I have a little time, and I actually feel like I am free.
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